Is it the hormones again? Or maybe I’m really getting old (I hope not so fast though) … because old pictures are making me cry …
Of all the many realizations I’ve had, the most striking is this: that time flies so fast!
If only ….
Someone has written that these two are the saddest words a person can utter. In a way, yes, there’s truth to it. But I prefer to look at it differently. I’m going to write about my “if only’s” so that my children will know how much I love them; so that they will know that if I missed doing things with them when they were younger – that it was not intentional. I also want them to learn from my short comings (I believe they are not really mistakes because I never knew then what I was supposed to do); so that when they become mothers themselves (and Father for Romelson), they can look back and say … “Momi taught me that …”
So here goes my: “If I can turn back time, what would I do differently?”
I’d breastfeed all of them all the way …
I will be a full-time stay-home-Mom …
I’ll teach them to sing and dance …
I’ll ask their Dad to make/construct them a small bamboo “balay balay” … Kanang dunay sala and bedroom and tiny kitchen hahaha! I know their Dad will say yes! (on second thought, pwede pa man ko mag ask karon hahaha!)
Then we’ll play house together …
I’ll talk to them about my childhood …
I’ll let them spend long vacations in my childhood home with their Lolo and Lola …
I’ll say yes every time they ask if “pwede maligo sa ulan”(unless dunay thunderstorms and lightning hahaha!)…
I’ll hug them more and kiss them more, bisan teenagers na sila …
I’ll tell them that they can talk to me about anything …
I’ll read the scriptures with them regularly …
Anyway … the list can go on and on and on …
I just hope and pray that my children know how much I love them … and how much I want them to be happy … and how much it will mean to me that they do their best in everything. I hope I have raised them to be good and responsible individuals. I hope when they become parents themselves, they will be the much “better me” …
You are my greatest treasures in my life … you are my reason for waking up in the morning and my inspiration in my work … because of you I am trying to become better … ♥♥♥





















